Latest topics
» Scamtastic Weeks End RV/GCR News
Today at 10:41 pm by PurpleSkyz

» George W. Bush ‘War Crimes’ Trial Begins In California Court
Today at 10:39 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Anna Von Reitz spreading more fake news!
Today at 9:16 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Strawberry Robin Lollipops
Today at 7:25 pm by NanneeRose

» Elf on a Shelf
Today at 6:40 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Standing Rock ~ Camp update 12/10
Today at 6:31 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Boost Your Brain Health Naturally
Today at 5:53 pm by NanneeRose

» Christmas... it is just so confusing!
Today at 5:40 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Audio TNT Tony Returns To TNT Against Court Orders Plus Court Documents - Violates
Today at 5:22 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Fake News Replaced the Term Conspiracy Theorist
Today at 2:48 pm by PurpleSkyz

» OUTRAGE! South Korea's Satanic President Park Geun-hye Impeached - Millions Protest In The Streets
Today at 12:53 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Energetic Inner temperatures are rising to meet the New Gaia
Today at 9:27 am by PurpleSkyz

» How Frequency and Vibration Create the Structures of Matter and Life
Today at 9:13 am by PurpleSkyz

» NIBIRU News ~ RED PLANET NIBIRU - LIVE FOOTAGE and MORE
Today at 9:03 am by PurpleSkyz

» Weird monsters of Japanese folklore
Today at 8:51 am by PurpleSkyz

» Solomon Islands take the third massive hit in two days
Today at 8:46 am by PurpleSkyz

» Rise Together ~ Do no harm? (plus, conference call tonight)
Today at 8:38 am by PurpleSkyz

» WE, Will Destroy The Fake Media!
Today at 8:32 am by PurpleSkyz

» UFO News ~ Huge Dark UFO Passes Over Moon and MORE
Today at 8:29 am by PurpleSkyz

» The Enlightened Man - Even the smallest acts of kindness can change someone's life
Today at 7:33 am by Enyiah

» Love These....
Today at 2:26 am by NanneeRose

» We Are Still Standing in Standing Rock - LaDonna Brave Bull Allard
Yesterday at 11:18 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Truth Bomb - Max Igan talks with Mark Passio
Yesterday at 11:16 pm by PurpleSkyz

» This Lady Opens A Door To Show You What The Weather In Antarctica Is REALLY Like!
Yesterday at 10:32 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Climate change fuelling more intense and damaging storms: new report
Yesterday at 10:08 pm by NanneeRose

» Jeff Rense & Preston James - Geopolitical Update & Analysis
Yesterday at 10:01 pm by PurpleSkyz

» We are wasting our waste
Yesterday at 9:45 pm by NanneeRose

» What is Battery Recycling?
Yesterday at 9:42 pm by NanneeRose

» Tornadoes Of Change…
Yesterday at 9:41 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Anna von Reitz ~ The Rest of the Story—- and a Correction (or Two or Three….)
Yesterday at 9:39 pm by PurpleSkyz

» Kp Message 12-9-16… “Discernment” (and refraining from the “‘Frain’-makers”)
Yesterday at 9:34 pm by PurpleSkyz

» UN targets Australia over tree-clearing emissions
Yesterday at 9:33 pm by NanneeRose

» Lines Out the Door for Nation’s First Organic Drive-Thru Restaurant
Yesterday at 9:32 pm by NanneeRose

You are not connected. Please login or register

Out Of Mind » PERCEPTUAL AWARENESS » INFORMATIVE GUIDES FOR THE SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS » Being Me Is Perfect. For Me.

Being Me Is Perfect. For Me.

View previous topic View next topic Go down  Message [Page 1 of 1]

1 Being Me Is Perfect. For Me. on Sun Aug 04, 2013 6:05 pm

PurpleSkyz


Admin
Being Me Is Perfect. For Me.

Posted by heartlightdg in General August 4, 2013

For as long as I can remember, I have thought there was something “wrong” with me for being a quiet person who gets nervous in social situations.  I am nervous to talk to new people, reluctant to make phone calls, and freaked out to state what I need to say to authority figures.  I will go out of my way to avoid such situations unless I force myself to go through with them.
I’ve always been a watcher, an observer and a thinker with little to say.  Until I get to know someone, I’m pretty quiet.  Lots of thoughts go through my head but I don’t always feel the need to share them.  When I do, sometimes I prefer to write them down.  I have to be feeling really passionate or confident that I have something of “value” to add to a conversation before the thoughts in my head come out verbally.  In groups of more than three, it’s a guarantee that I let others talk before me.
I have never condoned a basic part of my personality, the part that is an introvert.  It always seemed to be a flaw in my character.  I have always wanted to be more outgoing and more comfortable with others.  I envied those who had such easy-going manners and social skills.  I envied those who were comfortable in their own skins.  They always seem to know what to say and are confident in who they are.  I often mumble, say the “wrong” things or end up tongue-tied.  Or I have nothing to say and look very stand-offish.  In high school, I was labelled stuck up and a bitch because I was quiet and not very outgoing.  (Go figure how I ended up loving being a cheerleader for five years!)  I definitely allowed others to color my beliefs about myself and I allowed their judgments to become mine.  I saw myself as lacking [name a quality] and persuaded myself that I was ”wrong” simply for being me.
I have made myself “wrong” for being who I am because I am not like others that I admire.
This past week, I was hugely triggered by our upcoming Retreat’s talent show.  Oh hell no! was my first reaction.  I can’t do that!  I had a meltdown just thinking about it.  I don’t have any talents to showcase anyhow, I thought.  Nope.  I’ll just watch!  Then my inner voice spoke up and told me I really need some help with this belief.  It’s an ongoing, deeply entrenched pattern that is holding me back.
So Friday I had a session with Veronica and Eloheim because I want to move past this.  During the session, Eloheim called me out on my self judgment, big time.  They made it clear that I am not wrong because I feel the way I do.  It’s just my truth.  Period.  Short, factual statement.  My truth is not wrong, I am not wrong for being in my truth, whatever that is.  And my truth is, I do get nervous around groups.  My truth is I am much more comfortable writing than speaking.  My truth is that I am quiet.  And it’s okay.  It’s my truth!
There’s nothing wrong with me like I always believed.  I’m okay as I am.  It’s not necessary to change that component.  What’s necessary is to let go of the belief I am messed up because I prefer to stay quiet and groups make me nervous.  I totally felt accepted and loved by Eloheim.  I felt comforted.  I felt the energy as they pushed for me to understand this.  And push they did.  I realised I am loved for who I am.  I’m okay the way I am.  I am not broken.  And of course, I cried (I seem to do a lot of that these days).  How freeing is that knowledge?!  You have no idea how much space was freed up inside me when I let that go.
Why didn’t I see this before with all I have learned in the last ten plus years?   Why did I need permission to accept that part of me?  I don’t know.  But hey, at least I get it now.
I can’t tell you how different I felt when I woke up the next day.   I walked around feeling so entirely ME that I was totally comfortable in my own quiet skin.  It gave me such confidence.
For example, I went shopping yesterday to find some gifts for people.  I was gone a lot longer than I had intended so the husband was less than thrilled.  When I got home, we could have had a tiff about it, but I didn’t feel the need to be defensive like usual.  (Because I felt confident in my actions.)  I didn’t apologise for or explain why I was gone for so long, it was a fact,  a done deal, and it was my truth though I did tell him about my day.  His reaction to me?  Far different in return than normal.  Very interesting.  Very, very interesting.  I accepted me, and he did, too.  We created dinner together and the evening was fine.
Popeye was called to mind after my session, “I yam what I yam!”  Period.  Short, factual statement.
Pass the spinach, please.   :D
 
Raising my glass to synchronicity…today my friend posted this article Myths About Introverts  to my timeline on Facebook.  I love it!

Thanks to: http://lifeheartandsoulblog.wordpress.com


____________________________________

 “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. 
H
ate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”
 Martin Luther King Jr

View previous topic View next topic Back to top  Message [Page 1 of 1]

Permissions in this forum:
You cannot reply to topics in this forum